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NB by Natasha Bedingfield
It’s been a while since my last entry. I will blame everything on assignments. There was one due today, and there are more coming 
On another note, I’ve been listening to Natasha Bedingfield’s new album: NB. Check out Pirate Bones, Soulmate and Say It Again if you have time. The melodies are nice and the lyrics not too bad, even thought I would like to have more depth on the latter two songs. In this album, she was a young woman who were focused on her love life in the midst of busy life style. Expect a lot of strengths and determination in the songs. Pirate Bones is excellent 
Click here to go to Natasha’s myspace. Sadly Pirate Bones is not there, but Say It Again and Soulmate are.
I thought because it has been a while, I will also do several updates from entries in the past:
my work @ the Bank: my manager finally get the idea and started to open some doors for me. My work is now getting enjoyable. It feels so much better when I look at my pile of work (that has now exists) to chose which one that I can do at the time, instead of thinking ‘ah, only have one work to do, and I have a full day work tomorrow. Should spare it for the future…’. I have proven that whinging is not a waste of time, as long as you whinge to the right person. In hindsight, if I have whinge more to my manager instead of other people, I might have gotten to where I am now much faster.
skin picking: even after frequent critiques from both Stef and Minie, I am still not able to stop it. Help >.< I now managed to hold until my fingers recover a bit more, but the biggest challenge is to not pick on the recovering skin because it’s thicker, and juicier…, and yummier =S
wisdom teeth: it is so naive of me to think that I could have the operation at week 10 uni calendar, which was about 3 weeks ago. I couldn’t even get any appointment with the dental surgeon until Nov 7th! That’s about a month waiting in the line.
More updates to come 
You’re the most perfect yet, most definitely that I’ve met … ~ Natasha Bedingfield in Say It Again.
Bugs: #1425: Memory allocation error
When I was in high school, forgetting to bring my lunch was a daily event. Sometimes, I forgot my watch and on a rarer event, I would forget my mobile. I didn’t just leave those occuring incidents alone, I tried to make checklist so that I wouldn’t forget anything. It worked for a day or two, but then I realised that the adversary in my brain made me forget about the checklist and I forgot even more things…
At present, things happen more randomly but it seems that this week I have had a streak of memory losses. On Sunday, I forgot to bring my work’s papers and books. On Monday, I forgot that I have forgotten the papers and the books at my house. I thought I left it at Minie’s place. On Tuesday, I left my ***mighty electric toothbrush*** which forced me to use the traditional toothbrush again today, sad.
Today was even worse! I remember to bring everything except one important thing. I even checked my to-do list in my mobile to make sure I didn’t make the usual mistake. I brought my camera, my harddisk, my mobile, my work papers & books, my reading papers, my lip gloss, my eye liner, my moisturiser, etc etc. The list goes on, except one: my wallet. It struck me horribly when I was about to get the usual travel ten out in the bus.
Now I am surviving the day with Stef’s $20 (Stef was luckily with me). The wallet is not something that I need for today thankfully, but I am desperately trying to install more memory to my head. The question is: how?
Dermatillomania
(also known as compulsive skin picking or CSP) is an obsessive compulsive disorder characterized by the repeated urge to pick at one’s own skin, often to the extent that damage is caused. ~ Wikipedia
Just today I realised that I am not able to stop my skin picking behaviour for a long time. I could not remember when I started it, but I did remember doing it from as early as year 4 in primary school. Today was particularly bad, I kept on chewing my fingers’ skin until they started to swell and I couldn’t make myself to stop. I was consciously hiding my chewing from others at the office so I could unconsciously eat more skin =S yaiks…
Googling ’skin picking’ gives me a better feeling that 1. I am not alone, there are lots of people who are doing it as well; 2. I am a light skin picker: I only pick my fingers, no other place (actually, that’s not technically correct if I include my toes >.<). But the extend to what these people are doing are quite worrying. They pick not just fingers, but face, back, scalp, hands, feet, and arms (~ Wikipedia), and other parts that are not disclosed.
*damn I tried to pick my skin again just then*
Self-motivation seems to be the best (and the cheapest) cure. Stef said it may be a good idea to make my fingers bitter to taste so it will remind me to stop biting when I am unconsciously doing it. It won’t stop the picking, but it will definitely help a fair bit. I am not sure what to put though, any ideas?